How are you doing?
I am fine.
Yesterday, I watched Thugs of Hindostan. It was the worst film I had watched this year. It’s sad to say this because great actors like Aamir Khan and Amitabh Bachan acted in this movie and I had so much expectations that the movie didn’t meet.
I was so disappointed with the movie that I couldn’t be able to write on Day 8. I. Just. Couldn’t.
Since this was a blog post reviewing the movie, I will post it in later.
But blaming on the movie is just an excuse. Out of 9 days, I skipped 3 days. I should’ve written 7 to 9 chapters by now. But I was able to write up to chapter 5 as of today.
Considering I should’ve written 1,667 words each day, today my word count should’ve been at 15,003. But my total word count is 10,452. I am lagging behind by 4,551 words.
Skipping a day after I’ve written one day has becoming a fashion. I hope … no. I will stop this trend by writing another chapter tomorrow morning.
Thought, amidst all this failure, I found one positive thing.
I wrote 3,063 words today.
If I somehow able to write 4,551 words plus 1,667 words tomorrow, which was almost three to four chapters, I would reach catch up with NaNoWrimo.
But I know I can’t do that. The most I can write is two chapters per day.
If tomorrow’s chapter is as lengthy as today’s, then I could reach 4,000 to 5,000 words.
Let’s see what happens tomorrow.
I will post scene and sequel break downs of the chapter I write for couple of more blog posts. If you want for more, please mention it in the comments.
As in previous blog post, here is the breakdown of this chapter into scene and sequel.
Can Balu get information regarding Madhav’s plan from Radha on their date?
Balu, Radha, Raghav, Shyamala.
Restaurant, table with candle light dinner, soft violin music.
Whats going on?
Balu and Radha trying to setup Raghav and Shyamala. Drinking.
Can Balu get information of Madhav’s plan from Radha on their date?
Evasion. Radha wanted to make Madhav jealous. who, they were sure was watching them. she tried to be physically intimate with Balu.
Under the influence of alcohol, Balu fails to get the info. instead, goes into a hotel for sex.
Wakes up. Foggy and headache. Hatred at himself. Finds that he had sex with Radha.
Analyzing the problem:
Radha was physically attractive and can’t contorl himself. She was a distraction he cannot afford.
Review key points:
About setting up Raghav and Shyamala. About Madhav. How he couldn’t control himself. Radha or Madhav can use it against him. He cannot become CEO and make EyeBooks dominate the market.
Can’t involve with Radha. Too clingy.
Can’t focus on setting up Raghav and Shyamala. Waste of time and Raghav would hurt himself.
Find another way to get information about what Madhav was planning, though it was difficult.
Decide to find another way to get the information, convince Radha about one night stand.
Talk to her when she wakes up.
Chapter 5: Balu
I sat opposite Radha, who was wearing a dress that revealed her perfect figure. It hugged her chest area, cleavage showing more, and was clearly showing her shapely legs that left me desired to watching it more.
From time to time, I gazed at her cleavage, her legs and at her eyes. She knew the effect she was having on me and I grunted to hide how hard I was becoming.
Damn it. I didn’t know she was this much temptress. But no matter what, she was the interest of Madhav and I should not get too carried away by her.
Raghav was sitting yby my side, opposite to whom Shyamala was sitting.
She was dressed in simple clothing, more like she came in her office dress. She didn’t wore a hint of make up and who likes to watch such one anyway. Even Raghav was in his simple clothing. Maybe that was why they could be paired together.
But so far, whatever we were doing, by we, I mean Radha and me , is not working.
They just glared at each other, more than me and Radha gazed into each other eyes.
To make the mood romantic, I ordered candle light dinner for both of us, with soft violin music paying in the background. Once the dinner started, I hope the magic would happen.
I ordered separate tables for both of us, with few tables apart for each other so that we would be able to keep an eye on them at the same time get our own privacy.
“So, what do you think of Raghav?” I asked Shyamala.
She turned her glare towards me. It was not an easy task to keep my gaze on her. Her eyes were big and for some reason, I find it difficult to look at her when angry.
I cleared my throat and looked at Radha.
She raised her eyebrows that were suggesting like you were our CEO. Handle her.
I gave a shrug, saying I am not yet CEO.
She shrugged, then continued to sip water.
I turned to Raghav instead. “What do you think of her?” I asked him.
“Flat chest,” he said. So honest that I wanted to smack him on the head.
Why had to be so honest at a time like this. I am trying to set him up. He should help me, not ruin it now. Flattery is what makes or gets us women and when does he get into thick head of his about that?
I shook my head.
“Dinner is about to happen. Why don’t you introduce yourselves?” Radha asked.
When none replied, I signaled to the staff.
They would arrange our food and set up tables for us. meanwhile, I dragged Raghav towards other side while Radha did the same with Shyamala.
“Please, at least try to be interested in her,” I said.
“She wanted me to act like we were having a good time. You know how much I hate people that act,” he said.
I was surprised. “Why?” I asked.
“”To satisfy her sister. I swear she does everything within her power to satisfy her. She is like …” he frwoned at Shyamala, who stiffened when Radha placed a hand on her shoulder.
“See what I mean, she is scared of her sister and was willing to do anything to satisfy her. Like acting,” he said.
“Well, we can’t do anything about that. but why don’t you give her a chance,” I said.
“Like you are giving a chance to all the girls around you?” he asked.
I sighed. What he was saying was true. Like Shyamala was trying to please Radha, I tried to please all the girls around me. When it came to, I discarded them. Though, it was not my fault and I made sure every girl knows about that while they enter into relationship.
“I don… why don’t you just give her a chance. She seemed like a nice girl,” I said.
“Coming from you. Everyone is a nice girl in your eyes,” he said.
“Please,” I said. If it was another one, I wouldn’t have begged.
But he was my friend and I wanted him to be happy.
“Only because you are asking me,” he said.
He walked towards the table that I set for him.
Radha also made a good progress with her sister. She hugged her sister and sent her towards Raghav.
Then turned towards me. She smiled and I can read it from her, the lust.
I don’t know if I can’t control myself tonight. But if I wanted to get the plans of Madhav from her, then I had to control myself.
Shaking my head, I went to our table and waited for her.
I was not a gentleman. So when she came and crossed her hands, tapping her foot impatiently, I crossed my own and stared at her. Finally, she huffed, pushed the chair back and sat in the chair.
“I don’t know how many slept with you, considering you don’t even want to impress a girl,” she said.
I smiled. “I don’t need to work hard to impress others. Just my sexy gaze is enough,” I said.
“Some day, you will find somebody that wouldn’t be swept up by your sexy gaze and you would be wanting her enough that you would do anything to impress her,” she said.
I am surprised. For someone who is indirect, she was pretty direct with me today. I don’t know whether I should be careful or not, since I can’t tell whether the girl she meant was herself or other. “I doubt it,” I said.
She just shook her head. “Anyway, why don’t we look at them,” she said, looking at Raghav and Shyamala’s table. I turned and groaned.
They crossed their hands and glared at each other.
“I don’t think they are going to work,” I said.
“It seems to be. But I don’t know what kind of guy she wanted. I treid to set her up with good guys as well as bad guys. But she just ignored them all. I somehow convinced her this time, but it looks like it was not going to work,” she said.
I was shocked by how hurt her voice sounded. It sounded genuine, like she wanted her sister to be happy. “You care about your sister so much,” I said.
She nodded. “She is my little sister after all. At first, when back in college and she used to date, I interfered and spoiled many dates. I wanted to make sure my sister is not going to be hurt. But it left with her not dating anyone after we left college,” she said.
I don’t know how to reply to that, but I can guess what she was feeling to certain extent. After all, she was protective of her sister as I was with Raghav.
“You just wanted her to be safe,” I said.
“Yeah, but look where it brought her. If I don’t know my sister, I would’ve thought she was not into men,” she said.
I was horrified. I don’t know any of that kind. “She was into girls?” I asked.
She gasped, then shook her head. “Hell no. She was into men. It’s just that she is reserved,” she said. She leaned forward, her cleavage showing more, and whispered. “When she first saw you, she had developed a crush. But after seeing how you change girlfriends, she …” she shrugged.
Shyamala had a crush on me? I find that interesting. Not that I had any feeligns for her sister. In fact, I hadn’t dated anyone with flat chest and glasses.
“My friend was a good one. I think they suit each other,” I said.
“I am not sure about that. I had watched many relationships and am an expert when it comes to identifying whether a couple were meant for each other or not. I am not getting that vibe from them,” she said.
I was curious. My mother had a friend who had the same ability and she was cheerful as well. I don’t know whether Radha was playing with me or not. Why don’t I test her?
“What about us?” I asked.
She shook her head. “Both of us know why we agreed to date today,” she said.
I played dumb. I just shook my head.
She sighed. “Well, if you want to hear it from my own mouth, then here it is. I am not interested into you. I want Madhav and only him. I want to make him jealous and I would go to any lengths to make that happen,” she said.
I was shocked. Such intensity. I don’t think Madhav would be able to handle her. “Even if it means sleeping with me?” I asked.
“Yeah,” she said.
“Doesn’t that means you would be cheating on him?”
“It would be cheating if we were in a relationship with each other. But since I am not, it doesn’t matter.”
“I am finding it difficult to believe,” I said.
“You will get to know when you meet someone you love truly,” she said.
I shrugged. My father and my mother. My aunt that I talked about earlier and her husband. These are the only people I know who are in true love. I don’t think love is something that was present in current generation. If she wanted to waste her time in believing that, I don’t care. As long as I get what I wanted from her.
No, I didn’t only want sex. I wanted to find information about Madhav also.
“How is Madhav faring?” I asked.
She snorted the water she was sipping. A coughing fit. Then once she settled, she cleaned her mouth using papers and glared at me. “What about him?” she asked.
“Ever since I know him, he wanted to get what I wanted. We would compete with each other and usually, I am the winner. I wanted to know what are his plans for becoming CEO?” I asked. Direct.
She shook her head. “I don’t know,” she said. “Why don’t we …” she moved closer, placing her barefoot on mine. She traced her foot up and down my ankle.
I grunted. “What are you doing?” I asked.
“What do you think?” she asked, leaning down. If the table is not between us, I would’ve already ran my hands through her chest. She was becoming bold.
“I am interested in what he was doi…” I let out sharp cry. She rubbed my leg harder. I turned around to realize we were the only ones present inside. Shyamala and Raghav went to stand outside. I don’t know when they went out. but I don’t care.
“What do you think you are doing?” I asked.
“Taking first step,” she said.
“I like to be in control,” I said.
She chuckled. “Then it’s time to enter into new experience,” she said.
I shook my head. “Look, why don’t you tell me about…”
She pressed her toe, licking her lips. Damn it. She was not letting me to ask about Madhav. I don’t think even I would be able to tolerate her. God help Madhav if he gets into a relationship with her.
“Please. Just stop,” I said.
She instead reached for a grape, spread it over her lips, licked it and placed it between her lips. She then put her hands on the table, then leaned forward. I leaned in automacially.
She inched closer to my mouth, placing the grape into my mouth, pushing it inside, while smashing her lips with mine. Just for a moment. She then backed away, leaving me gaping.
Damn it. She was a temptress.
My hardness was visible even to her and she chuckled.
I signalled the waiters for wine, who were waiting outside. They must’ve watched our exchange and normally I was not uncomfortable. But today was different.
I cleared my throat and signalled for wine.
He poured into the glasses and left.
I took the sip of wine, enjoying the burning sensation as it flowed through my throat.
I closed my eyes and savoured the taste.
When I opened them, she was sipping hers, slowly. She was looking at me with so much lust that I wanted to take her here itself. But I controlled.
I drank wine instead.
It was half an hour before I realized that we finished entire bottle. I started to lose control and know how today was going to end.
There was no way I was going to get infromation from her. Why don’t I save my reptuation by doing what both of us wanted?
That’s what I did. I called in for the bill, forgot about Raghav and Shyamala and took her to my room that I usually keep for having sex with my girlfriend.
Under the influence of alcohol, she looked hotter than hell. I couldn’t contorl myself. I gave into her and …
When I woke up, my head was pounding. Everything was blurry and my mind foggy.
Once the foginess cleared away, I started to feel the body on top of me. Radha’s.
I hated myself for losing control yesterday. Not only had I sex with Radha, but she was in control the whole time.
I got more excited when she moaned each time and I couldn’t hold myself for much longer. When the release came, quickly, I hated myself more. If that was possible.
Radha was physically attractive alright. If yesterday night was any indication, I can’t control myself. She would be a distraction that I cannot afford.
She was a temptress in every way and she was too hot to handle also. I sympathize Madhav. She would definitely make him hers. I don’t know how he was going to deal with her once they start their relationship. There was no doubt regarding that. She was focused so much on him.
Once we finished, we talked about what we wanted. I get to know how much she loves Madhav and can’t wait to have life and sex with him.
She was tired of making him jealous. The reason she agreed to do that with me was because I was an enemy of Madhav and if I couldn’t make him jealous, then nothing could.
But still then, she said she would not give up. With such an intensity that I was scared.
She then talked about her sister, how sweet and innocent she was. I learned that her sister didn’t had sex with anyone. She was waiting for a perfect guy.
It looks like both the sisters were living in fantasy.
I don’t want to deal with either of them, neither do I want Raghav to deal with them. Once I meet him today, I would make sure that he would stay out of their way. It would only …
I gasped as I realized that it would hurt my friend.
Not only that, the chances of Madhav using this against me is more. I couldn’t become the next CEO if I used Radha. That’s for sure.
Instead of working on EyeBooks, I would either had to waste my time on Radha or on thinking how to satisfy her.
No, I can’t use Radha. Not if I wanted EyeBooks to dominate the market.
Radha would go to extreme lengths to get what she wanted. Sleeping with me to make Madhav jealous was proof enough. It would only burn me if I continued to try to use her. She would use me instead.
The way she talked and behaved with Shyamala, she was clingly.
I also can’t focus on setting up Shyamala and Raghava, like I tried to do at the start of our date. It was going to hurt my friend and would only take my focus away from making EyeBooks dominate the market.
That left me with finding another way to know what Madhav was planning. It was difficult. He was reserved and keeps his activities hidden. Only Radha had access to him, as she was her personal secretery.
Even she didn’t have full access to him. They would only converse for short periods, see his schedule and attend few meetings along with him, the ones he decide her to.
I don’t know how I am going to find another way to know what Madhav was planning, but finding it seemed like my only choice.
I only hope that Radha will treat today as one night stand. Other wise, I had to convince her regarding that.
I hope she was suddenly not interested in me.
When she woke up, I sighed. “This is only for one night. Like you said, we are not a couple,” I said.
She nodded. “I don’t want to him too jealous that he would leave me. So, what about my sister and Raghav?” she asked.
“I don’t think they would be into each other. Let’s just put this as a failed attempt and you search better guy for her,” I said.
She frowned. “Something tells me she was going to find her love soon,” she said.
I was confused. “How?” I asked.
She shook her head. “If you have a brother, you would understand. Even though we are not twins, I felt closer to her than to anybody. I spend so much time with her that I can tell or feel what she wanted or about to get. Call it … I don’t know what they call it. But my mother said we hailed form family that used to be expert in such things. Especially the bond between two sisters is so more,” she said.
“Is that why you are so clingly with her?” I asked.
She huffed. “I am not clingy. I just care for my sister and wanted to best of her. Wanted to share everything in my life with her,” she said.
I shook my head. Relationship wise, Madhav was my brother, he was my cousin and all. But I don’t want to share anything with him.
We compete with each other and don’t care if the other was hurt.
Their relationship was different. Genuine. It’s more or less like what I had with Raghav. Though, their intensity was more.
“Good luck with Madhav and Shyamala,” I said.
“Good luck for becoming CEO and with Raghav,” she said.
So, what do you think about it?
In future blog posts, I would break down sample of a scene into Motivation-Reaction units. I will do it when I get more time. Hopefully, that helps those out there who wanted to become a writer and me also.
The best way to learn is by doing it. If it is taught to others, we can cement what we learned in our brains.
I hope by breaking a chapter into scene and sequel, breaking a scene into motivation and reaction units, I would improve my craft, cement the techniques in my brain so that it would become second nature to me.
What about you? Please comment where you are in your NaNoWriMo journey.
Until next time,
Nagendra Kumar Yadav T.